I went to visit a student in the hospital. He had to have surgery on his brain.
He looked alright when I got there. He has a lot of people concerned about him. It was nice to see all the people who were out there supporting him.

It was sad seeing all the sick children there. There were some constantly crying.

:(

I honestly am afraid for the surgery that I need to remove my wisdom teeth. They really are a nuisance more than anything else. Plus they are hard to clean.
*sigh*

Anyone notice that KITT could have done everything by himself. If anything, Michael was a hindrance. "KITT, I need your help old buddy!" One time I wish that KITT had said, "F-you, you got into that mess you get out of it."

HAHAHAHAHA!

Knight Rider had to be one of the baddest shows ever!!!!

I downloaded the theme song.... yeah..I actually did that.

I went to the grocery this morning.

NO CHICKEN!

Steups.... I had to settle for mincemeat instead.

My boyfriend and I decided to take a lil trip to the mall. I didnt eat lunch so I was really hungry when we got there, which was around 5pm. When we got to the food court, there was Nature's Own and Johnny's which sold creole food. The choices were limited there.

There was Royal Castle (not a big fan) ; Chopstix (food looked too lil bit) ; Mario's (wasnt feeling for Pizza) and some curry place which I wasnt really feeling for. The last choice was BeefEater.
I ordered the 1/4 chicken and fries and I was told I was getting a drink. YIPPEE! All for $26.95. I balked at the price but we were liming and I just got paid, so I shrugged it off.

When I saw my plate eh, I was horrified. That wasnt 1/4 chicken, that was 1/16. The thing fucking SMALL!!!!!!!! Well I start to laugh because I really thought that was a joke or something. They gave me the leg and thigh of a quail, some coleslaw, some lettuce and a slice of tomato and a stale bun with butter. PLUS the quail was burnt. I was so mad eh. I was only envisioning myself walking up to them and telling them, "This is what allyuh fucking giving me? Allyuh eh have no shame??? ALLYUH SICK!!!!!!"

But what good would that do? I would just embarass myself and they still would have my money.

So I ate it... and then went and bought a Donut boys hotdog which was not only filling but real lash too.

Beefeater will NEVER get my money again.

And my boyfriend is such a nice person eh. He went and bought a burger.
If you see set up!!!! Burger with two patties, and two scoops of potato salad.
And he was only saying how good his burger was while he was looking at my disaster of a meal.

*sigh*

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

That's how I want to live life....well...except with the wine... I dont drink alcohol.

I went for a driving lesson and I felt as if I was driving for a long time. Imagine if I went to ALL my driving lessons ...wow.... I real 4king lazy sometimes yuh know.

On Thursday I was taking the roll in my class and I looked up and I saw a boy in a red jersey. I want to know who is this. When I looked at the boy, it was one of my students who migrated in Form 2. It was really good to see him. He grew!

When he left, I said to myself, when you have students coming back to look for you, yuh reach as a teacher yes.

A teacher sent out her students about 5 mins early and that disrupted my class. I looked at my watch and said, "Class is still going on." A student who isnt normally rude said, "Fire bun you." Now he didnt say it DIRECTLY to me, but I did hear him and threatened to take him to the Dean. I also made him write a report.

When I started grilling him about what he said, he broke down in tears and confessed that he was very frustrated with school and that was why he lashed out like that. My heart went out to him. He's only 13. He says he has no time to have any fun.

My heart went out to him.

I started so many different posts tonight and I found I was just talking shit.
*sigh*
What's going on with me?

1. My relationship is great. My bf is such a cutie pie, contrary to what some people might think these days. I'm in a real comfortable place. I was mad at him and he just said, " I'm not mad at you nah," and chuckled. How could I stay mad???

2. My family isnt talking to me. It bothers me but I must stand my ground. I pay all the bills, do tha majority of the cleaning and on top of that must cook for a 20 y.o? And the thing that real disgusts me is that my family VEX about it!!!!!!!! WHy dont they encourage him to seek some independence??? STEUPS

3. Work is not so bad. WHen you follow the rules, things go smoothly...well...kinda....
My form class is afraid of me. NICE!

4. I would admit my spiritual life isnt the best right now. Laziness is the reason. I really love my Sundays, staying home and just vegging out. I rather pray at home.

5. This is the year of AYANNA! I am doing all the things I want to do and not really taking on anybody else.

I look back on my life and I missed out on a lot of things. I should have gotten my licence at 17. Now I have to be fighting up with it.

I never travelled.
Never enrolled in any extracurricular activities.
My parents never sat me down and spoke to me about any thing..not about men, taking care of my body.. nothing.
But I cant do anything about the past.

But I am making my own future. I have huge plans and I am going to work really hard towards the success of those plans.
Wish me luck!

I started so many different posts tonight and I found I was just talking shit.

*sigh*

What's going on with me?

1. My relationship is great. My bf is such a cutie pie, contrary to what some people might think these days. I'm in a real comfortable place.

2. My family isnt talking to me. It bothers me but I must stand my ground. I pay all the bills, do tha majority of the cleaning and on top of that must cook for a 20 y.o? And the thing that real disgusts me is that my family VEX about it!!!!!!!! WHy dont they encourage him to seek some independence??? STEUPS

3. Work is not so bad. WHen you follow the rules, things go smoothly...well...kinda....
My form class is afraid of me. NICE!

4. I would admit my spiritual life isnt the best right now. Laziness is the reason. I really love my Sundays, staying home and just vegging out. I rather pray at home.

5. This is the year of AYANNA! I am doing all the things I want to do and not really taking on anybody else.

I look back on my life and I missed out on a lot of things. I should have gotten my licence at 17. Now I have to be fighting up with it.
I never travelled. Never enrolled in any extracurricular activities. My parents never sat me down and spoke to me about any thing..not about men, taking care of my body.. nothing.

But I cant do anything about the past.
But I am making my own future. I have huge plans and I am going to work really hard towards the success of those plans.
Wish me luck!

nothing eventful happened today nah!
Right now I am going to cook chicken, rice, peas, calaloo and frsh salad.

YAY!

I woke up with a headache.
But I also awoke to a phonecall from my bf. YAY!
He's a sweetie pie yes.

My blog is a place to vent. When i vex, is right here I am going to write about it. This is my spot. Now if I am talking about anyone else, I will be very careful with what I am going to say.
Blogs are cool!

Just so today, I feel revitalised and I am going to spend an hour and a half doing work tonight. Wish me luck!

Gosh I feeling so frigging tired eh!
Doing Tae bo and staying back for a meeting dont mix!

How many more weeks till school closes?

*sigh*

I cant wait for the day I live in my OWN home.
This man playing this frigging song over and over and over. And there's cursing in it.
Just like this morning. I jumped in a taxi going to school. 96 was on. no scene.
Then the driver pushed in the CD. All I heard was ...nigga...bitch....playing with my lolo......fuck......

There were students in the car so I waited until they came out to tell him that he has students in the car. He shouldnt be playing music like that. I was bracing myself for a confrontation, but he was very understanding.

I feel proud of myself.
I went to the market.

YAY!
I swore I would never go there, but I ventured in today and it wasnt that bad at all!

My sister calls me yesterday asking me if I cooked for the week. I said no, I got home late every day this week. She then tells me that she is not bringing any food for me. I said ok and hung up. What she figure? I cant cook??????? She figure she could hold something over my head????
I said I came home late this week. What the fuck she wants me to do???


STEUPS!

I must say I am a lil surprised about the turn of events on TS.
People not talking to other people, people leave the forum....*sigh*

What a waste of time.
Life is too short yes. Too damn short.

Today I overtook someone.
HAHAHAHA!
The person was driving slower than me.
This morning I made some minor mistakes but I think I am getting the hang of it.

Last night I had my birthday lime at TGIF. It was nice. We ate and chatted then came home. Current went around 11pm. There was a flash of light, then BANG! Electricity went out. But they came soon after and made things better!

I have one more cheesecake to polish off.
hee hee!

I am tired from tae-bo....and I am eating cheesecake.
See the contradiction????

I stayed back for a parent's meeting today. It was good seeing some parents and giving them feedback on their sons.
I have to organize a parent's meeting for my class because 6 cell phones were seized today. Just when I thought they were getting better.

I stayed home yesterday and everyone immediately assumed it was because of 'activites' on my birthday. WHile things were steamy, my boyfriend and I had a nice dinner. I really enjoyed it, just sitting and having nice conversations.
He's such a darling eh.

Yesterday started off really well.
I went to my form class to teach Spanish and I saw that the class was decorated with balloons and other things. They really got me good. A form 4 who I dont teach anymore gave me a teddy bear and chocolate.
ANother one made a chain for me. I was really touched.

But my girls bought me whipped cream and a thong. heh heh heh....... I know when I would use that!!!
Cary called me all the way from Miami. I appreciated that call so much!
Cary is really a sweetie.

My mommy called too.

I took the day off today. YAY!

WOOHOO!!!!

I'm 26 today.
I just thank God that I made it to this day.

I have no lunch for tomorrow.

I am hungry.

:(

I realise that I was 'falin' with someone who probably didnt want to talk to me.


I tried. I wasnt aiming to be best friends, just to be civil.

Ah well......

I went to a lime last night and it was tons of fun. I really enjoyed meeting new people, talking about their goals and aspirations.

I have no idea why I am up now. I am talking to Rich about Trinidad's outlook. Interesting stuff.
Back to work tomorrow.....BLEH!

This year is full of decisions...wow...

......decision to study, decision to travel, decisions to play mas.

It all stems from this crazy new way of thinking that I have adopted where I must have as many positive experiences as possible.
I dont intend to do like some women I saw on Tv and expose my butt or wine down the place. But I am curious to see what the big deal is about. I want to look back at pics of myself in a costume with a hot body...yuh know....

hee hee

I have decided that I am going to play mas next year please God!!! It sounds like too much fun. Just have to find company to play in and I am good. SHould I go with Poison??? Or should I go with Tribe??? Or go with good ole Masquerade????

Decisions, decisions, decisions........


Well no beach today....
:(

I feel sick. I wish I could say I had such a GREAT Carnival that this is an after effect of so much fun yesterday....but alas...no.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that tomorrow is really a beach day.
And Friday is Pedicure day. YAY! I love those!

I could do this shit in my own home.

STEUPS!

HA HA!
Email is one of the best inventions. I email progress reports and I get instant feedback!!
And it's inexpensive too!!!




OK..I'm bored!

:(

Today is my best friend's birthday. She is exactly one week older than me. How cool is that?

My mother sent me a birthday email a week early. What is that about?

I must say I am enjoying this mini vacation. They should do this more often. I dont mind going out to school a week earlier if I get the week off for Carnival. It doesnt make any sense teaching anything because students dont come out anyway.
I intend to go to the beach at least once. YAY!

Rent as of January 2005 = $750
Cable= $200
Electricity = $120
Total = $1050

I didnt include phone and internet because I used that mostly.

My brother hands me $100 and tells me that is for the bills yes. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
He went out the road just now to buy ice cream. He didnt even say,' yuh want one or what?' Nutten. But I get boff fuh not fucking cooking. When I going in the bakery, I buy a lil tart for him. When I buy fruits, I buy for him. Fuck dat shit yes.

My sister is the worse. She calls me when I doing my errands to ask me to go shopping for her husband for his birthday, which I find real low to begin with. I trying to get out of the mall as soon as possible, she taking long long tell me what she wants. So I get irritated and of course she hears and tells me not to bother. STEUPS.
I offered to take my niece for a few hours so allyuh could get a lil down time. So fucking ungrateful. But I love my niece and I made a promise to myself to take her once a month.

I really think it's time to move out.

What really is the intrinsic value of Carnival?

I mean, fetes are really expensive this year. I remember when I went Insomnia, I paid $80. Now tickets start at $150. STEUPS.

Different strokes for different folks. But I am saving my money for a rainy day.

My niece looked me straight in my face and said, "Make a baby."

I backtracked..Did I take my birthcontrol?

Yes.

I think my form class is planning a surprise for my birthday. My first form one did something like that too....we'll see.
I decided I am not taking the day of my birthday off. I'll take the Tuesday off. heh heh heh.

YAY! My loooooooong weekend begins!

Yesterday I wore a lovely dress to work because I had a get together at my boyfriend's house. A co worker walked up to me and said that she didnt like my dress. In my mind I thought, " Did I fucking ask you that???" TOTALLY unsolicited opinion. How does that help me in anyway?
If you told me that you think my dress isnt suited for work, I could better handle that, but to outrightly tell me that you dont like my dress? Now I know that she didnt mean it in a malicious way, but STILL!

The get together was nice. There was a lot of food. I was just glad to see my bf during the week yes.

Today a parent threatened to write a letter to the newspaper about the school because of something I did. But I acted within the guidelines of the Principal as well as the student's handbook. The principal also backed me up.

Then we had Parents day. That was long and watery. The meeting started at 12:40 and I didnt leave there till 5:35 (sign out time) .

I went to buy some Chinese food and out of all the people there he asked ME to buy him some food because today is his birthday. I asked him why he not working, he said he looking but he cant find one now. I told him he looks very strong and I working too hard to give away my money. He just stood there as I ordered. He stood there when I went for a seat to wait. I saw him outside when I got my order and kept looking over my shoulder until I got him. After I blanked him, the nice smile he had was gone.

I am tired.
*YAWN*