Well, I dont have any water.

My sister did a very nice thing and called WASA. They said that they havent received any complaints from my area. The neighbours that I talk to arent home, so I cant ask them anything. Maybe in the morning.

*sigh*

And of course all the buckets in the bathroom are empty thanks to my brother.

STEUPS.

I went into work late this morning because I had a lot to do this morning.
Work wasnt that exciting today.

However this afternoon I had 'tea' with an Old Hilarian. It was fantastic. She has a lot of wisdom to impart and I lapped it all up.

I really enjoy talking to older women because they always have a lot of wisdom to share.

A pity one of them is not my mother. Not that I dont want to, but she isnt a very open person, not like some of the other women I have spoken to over the years.

I hope one day to be like that to some young woman looking for advice.

Today I found it really hard to get out of bed.

But I managed to get to school on time.

I was trying to skip assembly but our principal saw us anyway. Steups.

My form one class helped me with correcting the multiple choice which saved some time. Then after the break I went to see my class do their theatre arts exam. It was horrible. But some of them really have some talent.

I am ready for this vacation.

I was reading the Women's magazine online today and I came across this article.

http://www.trinidadexpress.com/index.pl/article_woman_mag?id=85474148


There are lots of those things mentioned that I do and lots of them that I dont.
This is the man that I intend to spend the rest of my life with. I THINK he can hear me burp every once in a while. The passing gas thing, I am very conscious of, and I will not talk to him when I am on the toilet bowl. That is a very private thing. I need silence.

But imagine married to your husband for YEARS and he hasnt seen you on the toilet bowl at least once. What's up with that?

I like the fact that I am comfortable with my boyfriend. We can just be ourselves.I dont have to have an air of mystery about anything.
Frig that article!

Friday was just one of those days.

I had my miserable class to start off the morning and sure enough, they were miserable. Some of them even skipped the class.

The highlight of the day was the fire alarm being pulled and we all went onto the field, then as soon as we went on, we were told we could go back inside.

Saturday morning, my mother called to complain to me about my sister. Apparently my sister isnt calling me by my name anymore. She's referring to me as the next one. Steups.
Yuh could swear from the way she's behaving like I cuss her. And the thing is that I dont even have any bad feelings towards her.

It really is sad that she dislikes me so much now, but I just want to be able to see my niece.

The lime this weekend was great. I feel reconnected again. So unto another week.
We are getting closer to the vacation.
YAY!!!!!!!!!

Today was Graduation. Of course I reached just in time.

It was so nice to see SOME of the boys graduating. At these ceremonies I always show my bais and clap for the boys who I think deserve it.
After the ceremony one of my favourite students came and told me that he is going to Sixth Form to do Spanish and Law. NICE!!!! He's so quiet eh, but I know he will do well.

After that, we went to Maracas to take a dip. The water is nice. I just came back and I am ready for the weekend.

I feel so much more in control. Over the weekend I think I lost it yes.
I always say Thank goodness for the Pill, but I dunno these days nah.

Tomorrow is Graduation so that is a day of NO teaching, BUT I still have to be in school anyway. I am SO glad that those Form Fives are leaving. You would not believe! They were just so rude.

Nothing of interest is going on with me really. Just counting down the days till the vacation.
YAY!

I HATE TO HEAR DONT WORRY ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I fucking HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baked Chicken and Shrimp make a bad combo.

:(

I was watching VH1 this morning (Thank God CCTT got it back!) and I saw this song and I have been ponging it out ever since:



Cold by Crossfade

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold
I never really wanted you to see

The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

You scored as Verbal/Linguistic. You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across. You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers. Verbal/Linguistic 71% Intrapersonal 64% Interpersonal 50% Musical/Rhythmic 36% Visual/Spatial 36% Logical/Mathematical 29% Bodily/Kinesthetic 25% The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Verbal/Linguistic. You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across. You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers. Verbal/Linguistic 71% Intrapersonal 64% Interpersonal 50% Musical/Rhythmic 36% Visual/Spatial 36% Logical/Mathematical 29% Bodily/Kinesthetic 25% The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences created with QuizFarm.com

So today is Father's Day.

The first of many without my father.

Not like I used to call him or anything, but it feels kind of weird nevertheless.

I keep wondering how my life would have been if he had been more instrumental in my life.
I think I dreamt him last night, but I cant remember the dream.


bleh.........


MY NIECE IS HERE!

She is so sweet. She gave me lots of hugs and kisses and she told me that she loves me.
Too sweet!

I am watching her chowing down on a pack of cheez sticks and singing. She is getting big yes.

I enjoyed "The Terminal" so much!!!

I found Tom Hanks was so sweet in this movie eh!!!

At the beginning I wanted him to leave, but when he was getting the chance to leave, I didnt want him to go.

Too cute!

So I finally got to see "The Notebook."

It was a great way to spend my Saturday night.

I fell in love with Noah Calhoun too yes. We can only pray for someone to have undying love for us like he had for Allie.

Beautiful movie...think I will read the book.

:)

What are some of the things that make you smile?

Well these things make me smile:

1) a good conversation. One where you laugh, you learn something new about the person you are talking to or just stuff in general. I had one of those conversations last week. I have known this person for five years and this is the first time we have had a normal easy going conversation. I hope we have more.

2) a good meal. One that was well prepared, warm-not hot, and doesnt stuff you but leaves you satiated.

3) my students. It's a rewarding thing to listen to students do their exercises. They are figuring out things based on what I taught them. They understand because I taught them. Really rewarding. Doesnt put money in the bank but it makes me feel good inside.

4) any episode of Seinfeld. I just LOVE that show. I wont buy the DVDs because they show it all the time on TBS. But he is a funny guy!

5) a good sleep.


I'll add more when they come along.

Friday wasnt too bad a day.
But all of us are suffering from the end-of-term blahs.

So I went to my Form Two class and as usual they always have some excuse for not having any books. Me? I just went ahead with who was there.

After break, I had a nice chat with a co worker of mine. She is 55 and she was telling me about her life and how she grew up. The chat was so nice that she invited me to tea with her sister, who is a well known Hilarian. I hope I dont make a fool of myself.

The best was lunch time. There was a fund raiser for the trip, a chinese que. Some where along the line, food ran out for the students and we gave up our lunches which I didnt mind. But let's just say I didnt eat till 330pm. The last thing I had to eat was at 930am.
No I'm sorry, no nothing......

A few of us went for a lime and then came home. I was trying to watch Full Throttle, but I feel asleep. I woke up with the receiver of the phone next to me, like I was talking to someone. I wonder what I was doing.........

I have some things to put in place this weekend. Hope they turn out well.

*crosses fingers and toes*

bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh...............

steups steup steups steups steups...............

whine whine whine whine whine.................

Last night I went to a very informative and interesting lecture. There were a couple of points that stuck with me.

1) African people are afraid of risk. This applies to me. I am afraid to make certain choices that could possible bring me financial reward because of failure.

2) African people speak poorly of themselves. It's true. We hear the words "lazy", "incompetent", "backward". And after a while, we tend to buy into that negative view of ourselves. A boy in school told me today that he knows he is a 'nigga'. That hurt me so much.

3) African people must leave a legacy for not only their children, but for their children's children.
I must say what he has said has sunk in very deeply and I am refelcting on what was said.

I love our idea of a date: a lecture. hee hee. We both enjoyed it.

Still feeling sicky....

Today wasnt too bad nah. Didnt have a lot to do today.

I am thinking about my future a lot and I am realising more and more that I need to get off my butt and start to get things in order. A friend of mine was telling me today that I was too comfortable. That if I really wanted the money I needed to do all the things I wish to accomplis, then I need to get off my butt.

And he's right. So thanks to him, I am looking into making myself a lil more marketable to earn that paper. Recently, I was singing the song that I wish my father had left some land, I wish my father had done this. But yuh know what? For some people, getting their licence is not a big deal eh. But for me it was. My Dell. I finished paid off for it in February and it's all MINE!!!!

So really, accomplishing things on my own steam is really a good thing! The next step is my Master's. I need to get that. And that will get the ball rolling.

YEAH!

I am onto my next project.

I feel energized and working towards a goal.

I was feeling stagnant for a while. I dont want days to pass me by and not enjoy life, not make the most out of it.

One small pleasure is this Recess movie I am watching now. I hope it's around when I have my daughter. It is so hilarious!!!

So I should have followed my mind and NOT gone to school today.

A student LIED on me!!!

He said that I pick on him. If it's one thing I dont so is pick on any one. I will boff yuh real stink, but I dont pick on anyone.

The boys come to school with their female teacher issues. He disrespected me, but he listened to the male teachers.

God, hear my prayer. I want a girl please.

http://tv.msn.com/tv/article.aspx?news=193788&GT1=6657

Katie Holmes has changed her religion for her man.

*rolls eyes*

The more I read about this relationship, the more I think it's nothing more than a stunt to bring attention to their movies coming out this vacation.

I stayed home today because I was sick.
But like I am feeling a lil worse.

I wish I could take the week off.

*sigh*

I am feeling a lil under the weather today, so I am not going in early.

But I missed this form three class too often, so I need to go in.

Bleh...why cant I just say F*** dem?

I dont know how he does it.
I dont know how he loves me so much.

I can be a handful, two handfuls even...but he loves me so much.

So Michael Jackson is not gulity.

Like what was a surprise.
Let's wait for the back lash to take place.

So I just came back from the cruise.
I am glad I went. It was a nice lime.
Much better than sitting home here.

We arrived late thanks to the unfrosted chicken of my friend. We then took a boat to a beach house down the islands.

We stayed there for a while then we were treated at a view of all the islands. We even saw a dolphin! How cute!

Before coming home, we took in the scenes at a go kart race ar Pier 2. Quite interesting.
Now I am home and, as I am typing this, I am feeling myself swaying as if I am still on the boat.

hmmmm.....

Today is supposed to be the cruise. Right now I dont feel like going a place, but I might as well get out and have fun. Dont want to stay here and stew.
Plus there is the promise of a lot of food!!

YAY!!!!!!

Another fucked up child being produced.

Just now I heard a noise and I heard a child start to cry.

This child is bawling and all I am hearing is cursing and shouting.

STEUPS

This morning was so stressful eh. Went to my miserable class and of course they were miserable. After that class my chest was hurting me. Not me again nah. Yuh do the hw, yuh doh do the hw...doh matter to me nah.

Same crap with Form threes.

I had a class election today. I must say it went well. There are some intelligent young men among us.

Then I went to Bootleggers today. Twas decent.
And now I am home and I am ready to sleep.

I am so frustated at work eh...you would not believe how I am counting down the days.

I just want to spend some quality time with my baby. Between his work and mine, we cant seem to spend as much time as we want. Once a week is just not enough.
I need him so much these days. Work is really tiring and some days I just want to come home and see him.
When I came home from work last week Thursday I met him and I was able to get a hug and kiss after a long day. It felt so good.

I want to go back to Tobago. I felt as if we didnt get enough time together.
I cant wait until July.

So there was no staff meeting today, as I semi expected.

So it has been rescheduled to Tuesday. STEUPS

One more day till Friday.

I am so lucky that the bacchanal with Tobago Express took place THIS week yes. I'm so glad eh.
I dont think I could have taken that disappointment nah.

Tomorrow is Staff Meeting.
Let's see how that goes. Too much shit is going on.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!
Seinfeld is so HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!
He was right to leave while he was on top.

So work is getting a lil sickening now. I cant wait for the vacation.

I had a weird combo today: Home made hamburgers and macaroni salad. At least my belly is full.

Some of the people on the forum are ridiculous. TS is not a nice place any more........I want to leave ...boo hoo...ah fuck it...who cares?

I have to maintain my good feeling otherwise that school is going to suck it from me.

Why is it that people just dont do things the PROPER way?
HUH?

How hard is that????

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/8090220/?GT1=6657

Yuh know, I wouldnt have read it if it were published in that tabloid. I would have waited and bought my own copy.

Hmm..July 16...That means I would have to line up early to get my copy...........

I think the best part about this trip was the reconnection my boyfriend and I experienced.
I enjoyed that the most. I liked how he took care of me and looked out for me.
This trip made such a difference to him and I am so glad. It made a difference to me too.
I feel more equipped to deal with the stress that my job has. Plus I have some cool pics and great memories.

I just came back from Tobago and I must say it was GREAT!

I needed to get away from Trinidad and its crap for while.

On Thursday afternoon a good friend of mine gave me a life home to faciliate my need to leave home early to get to the airport on time. My boyfriend arrived at 5pm on the dot only to be told that the flight would now be leaving at 7pm instead of 6pm...ok....we only had an hour and a half to wait again. We spent the time chatting and eating. Next thing when we checked at 630pm, we were told that we have to wait for another hour and a half. Well nice mood got killed one time. We were both frustrated, plus our guest house closes at 9pm. But luckily we got in contact with them and they made late night arrangements for us.

Silly person that I am, I was listening out for the announcement of our flight, while my practical boyfriend kept checking. It's a good thing he did because our flight was NOT announced and passengers were boarding already. We could have missed our flight!!!

The flight was a bumpy one but we got to Tobago safely. This is about 10 pm eh. We saw the guy drive up with the luggage, but no one took them off. My boyfriend asked the security guard if we could take our luggage yes, otherwise we would have been standing there for a long time. Got a taxi (for $40! But we really were tired and needed to rest), got to the guest house, and went straight to bed...well..kind of......heh heh!

Friday was a rainy day and we really couldnt do anything outside so we were forced to stay indoors, not that that was a bad thing.....heh heh heh!

Saturday was much better weather wise. We went Storebay. OMG. That has to be THE perfect beach. The water was the right temperature and well as clean and clear and there were no big waves.
We got lunch at Miss Jean's. I had my heart set on some crab and dumpling, which I enjoyed totally. But we left early because of the weather again.
Sunday we just lazed around until it was time to go.
Tobago Express redeemed themselves today. Our flight was not delayed and we left before 2pm. The service was much better in Tobago.

So here I am back here in Trinidad, going back to my job tomorrow.
*sigh*
I wish I had two more days. The weather is MUCH better today.

One more day!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!

I am so excited!!!!!!!!!