I was watching a True Life episode on MTV about Friends with benefits. I could identify seriously with that. I was like the first girl..I can't remember her name. We were/ are friends, but the physical chemistry at least for me was very strong. I couldnt just sit there and NOT touch him. It used to drive me mad. he had a calmness that I found so appealing, so attractive.

We hardly used to lime ouside my place and if we did see each other in public, I always felt awkward. There was a time that I was content with how things were..he pass by me whenever he had time and do whatever. I actually thought I was in love.

Now this guy was really sweet and he did care but, as he always said, I wanted more than he could give..and he was so right.

The outcome of this is that he is my friend right now and I care for him deeply..that wont change.
But also right now there is someone in my life who is giving exactly what i need and so much more...so much MORE.