My siblings arent the best at all.
They could be worse, but they could be better.

My brother is home all day. I come home after a hard day of work to meet a sink full of wares.
I will wash them, but I checking out the scene tomorrow.

My sister get on with me for $100. It's not like she will be put on the streets if she doesnt get the money yuh know.........steups.........

FRIG dem yes!

To answer the question on TS:

Falling in love doesnt take too long.

I remember I went to a party feeling one way about my boyfriend and when I went inside my home after the party, I was feeling another way.

So falling in love doesnt take long. It's just what you do after..maintaining those feelings.
I'm still in love with him, but my love for him has grown deeply as the months have passed by. But it's a lot of work.

So I had to listen to another story of a woman treating a good man poorly.

When will we learn?
When???

And them assholes who deserve bad treatment doh get it yuh know..they get our attention and love and kind words. STEUPS!

Yuh know.........some women are really fucked up.

Women always complain that they cant find a good man. Where are all the good men? they ask.

One RIGHT in front yuh damn eyes and yuh pulling stunts like this???
What de hell?????

I think that when people pay $100, they should get their money's worth.

I just came back from Trinity Cathedral's Brunch....I wanted to take my food away....it seems as if take away people dont get the same things as eat in people, which I think is unfair. Pkus the brunch was supposed to start at 11am...started much later.

I know it is to rebuild that church; that is why I bought the ticket in the first place. But JEEZAN!
Give people value for their money nah. I got kuchoorie, an aloo pie and something else in a box, buss upshot with curry chicken in another, a bag of sweets and a soft drink. STEUPS.

I'll be hesitant to support this venture next year.

Quincy Jones has to be one of the best music producers of our time. He produced a great song called, "Secret Garden" sung by James Ingram, Al B Sure, El DeBarge and of course Barry White.

Hot song yes!!!

They really do say after joy comes sorrow.
After I laughed up a storm last night, my siste comes and annoys me this morning.

Hopefully I will feel better after I have had my Subway.

Friday has got to be one of the best limes I have ever been on.
I laughed so much eh.

I came home at 12:40am! I cant remember liming so late before.
But I think the highlight was when we got thrown out of the rumshop in Tunapuna.

I am going to appreciate this time in my life when I dont have a family to take care of. I want to be able to look back and say 'yes I limed' so that when responsibilities come around, I wouldnt be pining for those carefree days because I have lived them.

Ever regret giving a friend advice that, at the time, sounded good?
*sigh*

It really did sound good at the time, and I thought it would work out, but as both of us always say, she's just too 'silly'. She wants commitment before the relationship has started. That sounds a lil backward to me. But it will all work out, I am sure.

Things are coming together well! I am so excited!!
All now so next week eh.........


Today I was missing my father. I dont know how that happened because I never used to do anything with him. It has been seven months since he has died. I thought the dreams would have ended when he told me he was in heaven, but I had two weird dreams after that.

And in these dreams, he's begging me for money and something else. I hate having those dreams...I really do. And I am the only one out of the three of us who is having those dreams.
STEUPS.

I am definitely trying to live a life where, when I die, I will be remembered for having made a difference yuh know? Not being grumpy, or being selfish or angry all the time... but having brought joy some one's life.
*sigh*


Dont you just love when someone tells you something nice? I helped a friend deal with a tough situation this morning and he said I made him feel better. All I did was listen. Something so simple can make someone feel better...wow.

Then talking to my boyfriend, he told me how proud he was of me, of my ability to speak Spanish. hee hee. It really is nice to be able to speak in another language. I have conversations with my coworkers in Spanish so that others wont be able to understand.

I recommend to anyone to learn another language.

YAY!

My glasses are ready!
I thought I would have to wait for another week.

Yesterday was supposed to be the girls' lime to go to cinema, but everyone bailed out. So three of us went to get drinks by a bar in Piarco. When I tell you, we real laugh. The best was when we pulled out Driver's permits. I real laugh at mine!

Then when I came home, there was no electricity. I was real upset. I had none for two and a half hours!

I am really appreciating this day off because things were getting a lil 'grimey' at work and I am a bit frustrated. Things are just too haphazard for my liking.

I was supposed to get up early this morning to do some work, but of course I was lazy and slept in.
Well at 6am, current went and I was in shit street because I didnt iron my clothes as yet!
I had to go and scramble up some outfit yes.

I went to school and had to deal with a fight first thing in the morning. JEEZAN!

My form twos are so sweet eh. I let them do a test, then I allowed them to watch Bob Esponja. They enjoyed it although they didnt understand one word. Neither did I nah. I found it was a bit tough to grasp. The nice thing is that two children at least said thanks miss. I know everyone wasnt watching, but it made me feel that at least two people appreciated my efforts.

I limed around a bit and then I went home.

While I was on my way home, I got a "just thinking about you" call. How sweet!

Sometimes it is hard to work with women..the moodiness, the back biting....but sometimes when we get together and share experiences, it just makes you feel like you are not alone.

Our conversation this afternoon was a lot of fun as well as interesting.

This weekend was uneventful, but restful.

So we have a short work week.
I like that!

Dont you?

Love is .....a trip yes. At times you feel so light and happy, then at times it just causes you to do some things that you might not otherwise do.

This weekend was tough. But I am glad that's it's over and we are able to move forward.

Clive Abdullah has to be one of my favourite preachers in the Anglican Church.

I enjoyed his take on the Creation Story. And believe it or not, there was a question and answer section. I like that. The congregation has an opportunity to clarify certain points.
And he looks so good for his age eh.

I went to Tru Valu, made some groceries, bought some Subway and came home. Now it's time for my Sunday rest.

There is nothing like a Linkin Park CD to get rid of that bad mood you're in.

Thanks Chester.

You rock so much!

And Mike.....Thanks.

I will pay whatever you ask me to if you ever come here to Trinidad.

I woke up this morning with the right side of my head pounding. It felt like a truck had run over it about twice.
It was hard to shake.

*SIGH*



*FUCK*


*WHY*

TGIF!!

Not like I can enjoy it because I have a damn walk-a-thon to be at.
STEUPS!

I am tired. I just came back from Bootleggers from a nice lil lime. Now it's time for bed.

Hear nah!

Be careful what you tell children. They tell parents the wrong message.
Today wasnt too bad a day nah. I missed my class again, but it was for a good cause.


MTV wants to film the Challenge here!!
WOW....I would love to see Mike and Landon in real life.

*drool*

Am I selfish?

Am I wrong for just wanting to come home on evenings and not say anything to my brother since he is the one I live with?

Is it wrong that I do not want to share my food with my 20 year old brother?

dread, COOK YUH OWN FOOD!!!!!!!

I cant believe he is asking me for my food!!

I work too hard to come home and cook for a twenty year old.

No WAY am I doing that.

BBcode RULES!!

I love to see how the newbies fall for it!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Watching TWO episodes of Seinfeld hits the spot.
YES!

I enjoyed this meal that I just made: Baked chicken, sweet potatoes and vegetables.
I am glad I bought the sweet potatoes instead of the Irish potatoes.

School wasnt too bad today. Just a lot of BS.

I love jewellery and clothes, but I also love the simple things.

Last night my baby brought me cake and ice cream. I real nyam dat yes!!!

Cheesecake ice cream always remind me of when we first started liming. He bought me some just to make me fee better..along with lots of fruit. hee hee. He's too sweet yes.

I was watching a show called NEXT on MTV. I love it!!!!!!

A guy or a girl has five dates. If he or she does not like what he or she sees, they say, NEXT! and move on.
I was watching that show and thinking to myself that this is what some people have to go through to meet someone. JEEZ! I eh know if I could go through the whole dating scene again nah.
I quite like the life I have settled into. I am finally getting accustomed to my boyfriend's idiosyncracies ( and he has a lot!) and growing to like some. He does some things just for me and just to make me laugh.

No one has ever done that for me. *blushes*

I just finished watching "Malcolm X". Why didnt he win?

This was his competition:

Al Pacino - Scent of a woman (the winner)
Robert Downey Jr - Chaplin (If this won, it would not have been so bad. Robert Downey is a great actor)
Clint Eastwood - Unforgiven
Stephen Rea - The Crying Game

That was such a good movie. SUCH a good movie.

I looked at "White Chicks" and I am still trying to figure out what was so GREAT about that movie.

The jokes were stale, the story line was stupid, the 'feel-good' part was so lame and predictable....jeezan!

The only thing I found funny was the guy who played "Latrell Spencer". He was just pathetic.

Please people, let's try to avoid watching shit like this nah.

I just saw piece of a great movie called "Bamboozled". I hope it shows again some time over this weekend.
Very insightful movie into how Afro-Americans are portrayed in movies.


"In conversation, Lee wonders why black-themed shows on TV are nearly always comedies; why are episodic dramas about blacks so rare? Are whites so threatened by blacks on TV that they'll only watch them being funny? An excellent question. And when Lee says the modern equivalent of a blackface minstrel show is the gangsta-rap music video, we see what he means: These videos are enormously popular with white kids, just as minstrel shows were beloved by white audiences, and for a similar reason: They package entertainment within demeaning and negative black images."-Ebert

I didnt see the whole movie but what touched me at the end was the footage that Spike Lee put together from cartoons and movies with "black face". Then when the credits were rolling, he showed some toys which were portraying black people. Of course they were all dark with red lips, but they were either slaves, ministrels playing music or dancing or eating watermelon. I was shocked and amazed yes.

Then I came upon BET and saw something called Tip Drill. I know I am late with this because I heard people talking about it since last year. When I saw Nelly pass the card through the woman's bottom, I thought to myself, "This is Black Entertainment." Then I was treated to Booty Poppin by Ludacris, Donkey by I dont know and Disco Inferno by 50 cent. JEEZAN! What I am seeing now is that in these videos girls are topless and dancing on each other as well as kissing each other. It looks like porn. The name of the show is "Uncut" and they do give an advisory about the content, but it is read by a woman in a sultry voice.....oh please! How seriously does someone take that?

When I have my child, of course there will be the V chip, NO BET in my house nah.

I have scars on my retinas. It's not going to make me go blind or anything but the optometrist has referred me to an eye specialist "just to make sure".

So that makes TWO specialists I have to go by............

bleh...........

Thursday wasnt a bad day.
I left home early this morning to get some doubles.
I got more than my 8 hours of sleep. It was good! I need to do more of that.

I hardly spoke to my boyfriend yesterday. Both of us were catching up on some sleep.

Can you believe it?
It's Friday already!

YAY!

I finally got onto Blogger. I dont know what is going on with my computer nah. I cant get onto any sites at all! This is madness!

Today I am not going to tell anyone anything. I am just going to sit by my desk and do work. Just because I dont say anything, people feel like they can say what they want. They better watch it.

I am so glad I have someone in my life I could depend on.

Everytime I have some kind of appointment, he is always willing to go with me.

I was disappointed that he wasnt at my father's funeral, but it couldnt be helped.
If he could have been, he would have been there.

I'm glad that he has no problems showing me that he loves me and is willing to go the distance.
YAY!

You ever did anything so stupid? Something that could have been prevented? You keep telling yourself, "If only I had ............"

Well I did......... and now it's going to cost me :(


There was a bomb scare in school today. I had my afternoon all planned out. All that has gone down the drain.

I went to bed at 8 o clock last night! WOW...I was really tired. But I did some tae bo so that must have helped.

My day was a normal day yesterday. But I am just counting down the days.


If anyone bought a Guardian, check out The Boobdocks....HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

I went to the 6am mass this morning. It was short and sweet. But the things you see at minutes to six in the morning. I'm sure those people were the leftovers from the Free Jah Cure concert.

So I came home and made my necessary phone calls. Of course I called my mommy. I woke her up actually. Then I called my aunt and my granny, and my sister.

Then I went to my boyfriend's house and took his mother to breakfast. It was really nice. We chatted and ate our bellies full!

And then I came home for a healthy serving of lovin'!

What a great way to end the morning.

hee hee

Hunger makes people do some things yes.........

So I am watching "The Inferno" and I am absolutely mesmerized by Landon. He looks so much better in this show than in "Real World".

Although my TV watching experience was affecting by a helicopter circling the area, I am glad that it is taking place.

Big up my mother. She passed her exams. She is in her 50s and still studying. Good for her.

So the weekend is here and I am just relaxing. I LOVE it!!

I bought a pizza at Marios and I came home and nyammed.
I admit I am under some stress at work. Some students are getting on my nerves!!!!!!

They come to school with their shit and do NOTHING!

But one of my books is telling me to create a wall, so that the child's behaviour does not affect me. So I have some contruction to do this weekend.

I am watching footage of the Maxi Priest concert and I wish I had gone. Bleh....

My friends are going to Club Zen tomorrow and I am staying home to wash clothes and clean my fridge. I am not really of Zen nah.

That family day wiped me out clean. I was coming in during the vacation, staying late for meetings, arranging a setta shit. Like it was only my name people knew to call.
*steups*

I spoke to my friend last night and BVI is ON!!!!!!! I cant wait! Before I blink, August will be here!!!!!!!!

Today was a cool day for me. No setta hassle really.

Love is a splendid thing yes. I love being in love with someone who loves me so much. But it also sucks when it doesnt work out. People tend to do a lot of weird things when they are hurting...things you would never expect.

*sigh*

I enjoyed dinner for the last three days: Rotisierre chicken from Tru Valu, chucky veggies and mashed potatoes (instant). It was very filling and delicious and took all of 20 mins to prepare.
I am never using instant mashed potatoes though. It really does taste artificial.

If they do mix up the form ones, I will miss my class. They are so much kicks eh!!
Fuss it was so much kicks today, Luke ( one of the most MISERABLE boys in the class) and I were catching kicks. They do their work, but it's the stuff that's going on WHILE they do it that has me cracking up.

Imagine two boys were in the line to bring up work and they were talking about 18 year old boys with 14 year old girls. One boy said it was rape. Another one said it was oral rape.
Well I told them the correct term was statutory rape, then I laughed...ORAL rape??? WTF???


Almost time to go to bed. I need my rest.

I was right.

My friend was experiencing a lil difficulty. But I told him some stories to make him laugh, so I hopes he get over it.

Thanks baby for dropping my package in today. It helped me a lot.

Today was a good day but a friend of mine was under a lil pressure today.
I hope he gets through it.

I have two new books to read courtesy a friend of mine from Jolly Ole England.
" Teaching Clinic" and "Getting the Buggers to behave 2". It should make for interesting reading, as well as I hope to implement the methods put forth in these books.

It's so shitty that someone who wants something cant get it, but others who take it for granted get it very easily.

*sigh*

My baby came to see me!
YAY!

It's one of those emotional visits after a big fight...when all your feelings are right there on the surface...

I enjoyed seeing him so much, have him hug, tell me over and over how much he loves me.

I like those visits.

Today was a very good day. MUCH better than yesterday!
Yesterday was a bit rough but I am glad things have sorted themselves out.
Really glad!

So things are back to normal.
After tears and long conversations, we have fixed everything.

After this, I realise I cant be with anyone else. This is the man for me yes.


I will never say that my relationship is without its troubles (whose is?) , but what I like is the timely manner we deal with things. So now, we move forward.

I love you with everything I have, baby.

I am just numb right now. I am trying to feel something, but it's not working.

I have no idea what happened last night and how it came to all that. All I did was put something on my own blog. My own thoughts, my own expression.
If something wasnt clear, just ask me. All I was doing was giving a semi synopsis of what the tape had.

You're telling me forget it. HA! I will never forget this. This is a turning point in our relationship. If we survive this one, well then NOTHING could keep us apart.

maybe they were right..people with such differences shouldnt be together. But just let it be known, I NEVER made it an issue.

So we are back to Monday again. Just seemed like I was in the Ministry just yesterday.

So I am watching ABC and I see that they have two new cool shows: Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy.

I like those shows..some good bacchanal!

hee hee

This morning I went to church with my sister and there was a video presentation called "The Truth behind Hip Hop". I must say it was very interesting. Some things I agreed with, some I didnt, but I will discuss that in a later post.

I dont know what I did to deserve the boyfriend I have, but I am so lucky to have him.
:D