I just want to lie down and rest. *sigh*

I went to pay my bills this morning. That didnt take too long. Then I went licensing office to look at some people do their driving test. Well all the girls I looked at this morning failed. I was sending them messages via ESP telling them when to turn, telling them to stop or they will go over the line. But they didnt hear me. :(

Then I went for my driving lesson. Apparently I was driving so fast at 60kph that the L on the front of the car flew off. While I am comfortable driving on the road, the L turn is still the problem area. *bites nails*

Then I went by my boyfriend and slept for a good few hours. All my plans went down the drain.
But it wasnt a bad day after all.

My niece just left. WOW....she is getting so big. I was amazed to see that her parents have taught her about the consequences of bad behaviour. All I had to do was say, " No camp" and she settled down quickly. Nice.

A situation between two friends is beginning to worry me. He is an easy going cool fella, she is moody most of the time. While he is a patient fella, he has his limits and I think he is fast approaching them. I just hope everything works out.

WAAAAY!

That food went down good!

My boyfriend is so sweet eh. He knew I was hungry and he brought some food for me.

*burp*

My belly real full now. Thank you baby!

:D

I am watching an interesting documentary about a dwarf couple who have 4 children, one of which is a dwarf himself. It shows what they have to go through on a daily basis. Very very interesting.

The husband is a dreamer, but he isnt working. The wife is working 2 jobs as well as dropping the kids here there and everywhere. She isnt happy though. She cant share her husband's enthusiasm for his dreams when she's not seeing any money coming in.

But she does drive real fast boy. WAAAAY!

So as you can see I am just watching TV. Not a bad way to spend my day yes.

I went on my hike today. I dont know why I go these things. I always end up getting roast.

I got there late because I got up late. Thanks baby for waking me up.

So we got to Aripo and started walking...and walking.....and walking. My partner had to push me up the hill yes.

But when we got there the place was nice. If any of you are looking for a place to lime, check out Aripo Cottage. Nice view, plus there is a pool and a river.

My friend and I had a great time to chat and talk about a lot of things that were on her mind. That was cool as well.

Then we walked back to get the maxi and went to our respective homes. I took a nice bath and now I am talking to the love of my life. Today was a great day yes!

I enjoyed this weekend totally.

I spent all four days with my boyfriend. This is great considering we normally see each other on weekends.

I was talking a friend earlier and she was telling me that horning is inevitable in a relationship. I would beg to differ. I think that people can be monogamous. I cannot fully be comfortable in a relationship preparing myself for the event that my husband might unfaithful. That is shit! *sigh*

I enjoyed this weekend totally.
I spent all four days with my boyfriend. This is great considering we normally see each other on weekends.

I was talking a friend earlier and she was telling me that horning is inevitable in a relationship.

I would beg to differ. I think that people can be monogamous. I cannot fully be comfortable in a relationship preparing myself for the event that my husband might unfaithful. That is shit!

*sigh*

So Easter Monday has started off boring. I have nothing to eat in my house so that means that I would have to buy something.
The hike is tomorrow so that means I have to go buy some vital stuff like water and juice and snacks..so that means I have to leave the house.....

Bleh....

My relationship is solid. I know this for sure. We have been through some shit and we have come out even stronger.
I love my boyfriend with every fibre, every muscle in my body and I know he feels the same way.

I dont want to make this issue an "issue", but it weighs on my mind a lot. He reassures me all the time that I dont have to worry, and I try not to, but it bothers me still. I vow right this minute to work on it, forget my fears and insecurities and let go.

I dont know why but I slept a lot by my boyfriend and I do mean a lot. My boyfriend didnt mind...too much.
I like sleeping knowing that he is right there. I feel safer.

Kayode is a riot! LOL! He always has me laughing yes. And he's too cute too.

hee hee

I went to Good Friday mass yesterday. It wasnt too bad, but it was long!!!!!!!!! And I know the mass tonight will be long too.

My holiday is going well thus far...no complaints. I just need to make a trip to the beach and that will be good for me.

Yesterday was the last day of school. But it didnt feel like it. I still had to go to all my classes. Thank goodness they werent a lot.

Today was our last official day. Didnt feel like it either. There was a brunch at 10am at school. At that time I was probably wrapping up my TLC session (hee hee). Then I arrived at school just in time for brunch...and I got a skip too.

We well saying we will buss out early for a beach lime. Next ting yuh know de principal call a fucking meeting. And two vital people for the lime were to be in that meeting. Plan squash.
We hoping to reschedule soon enough.

Such an anticlimax eh.....

There was a students vs teachers basketball match today and of course the teachers won.
HA!

The students got licks again! We real pong dem!

So school closed today..YAY!!!!!!!!!!
Although tomorrow we are going to meet our new Vice Principal.

The work is never over...*sigh*

I miss my boyfriend. I wish he could have stopped off but he has an assignment due, so he needs time. Whenever he does an all nighter I always call him periodically to see how he is going.
:D

Today was a decent day that ended up so incredibly.

I went to work today and I taught my form one class. It wasnt that bad.
Then I had my break to plan what was on the agenda for the afternoon's meeting.

My form fours went to take a sweat. It was not what I wanted to do really but they got so excited and I know they would have been hard to settle down.

I heard there was a fight amongst the form 3s...things going down hill real fast.

I saw my friend in the mall and he told me that his dad was held up at gun point. Luckily things didnt get any worse. He has finally reconciled things with his wife and he is going to see her in Canada. So my picture frame would not go to waste.

At the Costa Rica meeting only 9 parents showed up. We running our blood to water to raise funds for everyone to go. But some parents can not be bothered. STEUPS.

So I came home from work tired and looking for a meal. I was going through the kitchen to get to the living room and I saw a person looking at me. I real scream...only to realise it was my boyfriend. Well boy....lucky ting my neighbours eh really take it on per se.....

But I was really glad to see him. This was the second time I came home to meet him there. That is a great feeling. I hugged him so much. The stress of the day just melted away yes.

I believe in a relationship that the couple goes through different stages. We have arrived at a new stage in our relationship. We are ready to share our lives together. I fell asleep in his arms tonight and I felt so safe. I honestly never knew love could be like this.....

Anything I could say right now would sound so cliched but this is the man for me..no doubt about it. This is THE ONE.

I just came back from the 10 sisters show at LRC.
It was a great way to spend my Sunday evening.

There was a comedic piece about menopuase. It was so ironic because just before the show started, my friends and I were talking about menopause.

Gillian Moor was great! I love that song "War on Crime."

There was a girl called Dana who talking about her "crowning glory' aka her locks and she decicated her poem to Khalifa something who was denied education at St Charles School because of her hair. For a few mins I wanted to cut off all my hear and grow some locks, but that is even more care than processed hair so I dont know....

Corinne Gray went to BAHS and she made me so proud eh. She has such a beautiful voice.

Debra Maillard was a fantastic MC. She played a character called Keisha. She had me real laughing. Bro. Resistance closed the show.

It was $50 well spent!

I am on the lookout for more shows like that. As I was telling my friends tonight, I am surrounded by testosterone whole week, it was good to go to a show that caused me to think and feel. As well as it is something for us women, yuh know......

Yesterday I couldnt get up to go to town nah. I needed to rest and relax.

My bf and I had a very interesting day. I was just so glad to see him.
We had such a good time just talking and cuddling up...I enjoy that so much.

School is closing this week!!!!!!!!YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can anybody say VACATION!!!!

FINALLY! The weekend is here!

I am almost finished with my marks and I am ready to call it quits...for the term at least.
I am so tired eh...so frigging tired.

Today was such a lazy day for me eh.

I didnt teach a thing. I just relaxed. I played a game with my form ones. It was good.

I went to a mission service in church this evening. Whenever God urges me to go to these things, it's for a reason. One of the topics tonite was reconciliation/forgiveness. I got some ideas as to how to deal with my situation, but I need to be ready emotionally to deal with it. But as was said, yuh dont know when your number is up.

I am so excited about going to the show on Sunday. I invited a lot of the women from work but they were so hesitant. bleh....ah try a ting. I have my ticket and I good!

Today I feel like 26. Older, wiser, and more settled. Well...that is what 26 feels like to ME....

what went on with me yesterday?

I had to invigilate an exam yesterday and the fire alarm went off. Of course you know students discussed the exam, but with these students I dont think that will help nah.

The majority of my miserable class brought in my work. So I decided to enact the Tomatina festival with them. Let's see how that goes.
8 out of 35 students brought back their tests signed. Well I called ALL those delinquent parents one time. I got some very favourable responses.

Then I had my favourite form two class and they just did their corrections. I can depend on them to do their work.

My boyfriend came by me to do his project. I was glad to help because I know that when I was in UWI, I needed friends like that to get me through yes. And it will pay off for us in the long run. ;)

Today wasnt too bad. I gave back a form three class their test results and they were rejoicing in their failure. STEUPS. I eh know what to do with them again nah.

I admit, I slacked off with my form four class. I really like SOME of them.

During the lunch hour the fire alarm went off AGAIN!!! of course the students who were in the box lunch line went mad. I pushed students back yes. I CANT take the greedy mentality boy!

I played Tomatina with my form class and that was fun. No setta hassle whatsoever.
Then after school, my good friend gave me a driving lesson on the school compound. Of course students laughed at me...what yuh go do yes? I got my practice.
Then I came home.

I am laughing at all the bacchanal on TS yes.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
My 'friend' who I was supposed to lime with set me up....steups.

This was an ok weekend. I got angry at my boyfriend and it bothered me for the whole of Saturday :( But we sorted everything out so we are back on track. I was telling a friend of mine that every day I used to call him or every day I used to get a text from him, but that has died out. It doesnt mean that I love him any less, but that we have reached a comfortable stage in our relationship. On Saturday his mom took out food for me and brought juice for me AND cheesecake. I was stuffed!!! I going and nyam that cheesecake just now.

My mom called to tell me that she bought two pairs of payless shoes for me. I didnt ask her for it, she just bought it. She and I are talking well again which I dont mind. I do miss my mother, but this experience of being on my own is priceless.

I spoke to my friend who I am supposed to be visiting in BVI in August. She is here for a few days.

That's about it for me yes.

I did my taebo today and I feel good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I eh know what will happen when school closes.

I finally got to see the documentary SUPER SIZE ME.

It chronicles the experiment of a guy named Morgan something who decides to go on a Mc Donald's diet for a month.

A couple of points stood out for me:

1) There was a link between student behaviour and diet. The cafeteria at our school has nothing good to eat. Lots of sugary drinks and fried foods. YUCK!

2) People didnt know what a calorie was. I mean I know it had something to do with energy, but I couldnt go further than that.

3) The doctors didnt expect that a high fat diet would affect the liver.

4) There is a guy who ate 19 000 burgers and his cholestorol is 140. wow.

Look out for it on SHOWTIME!

A word of advice:

When you are feeling down and sad, play some upbeat music..even dance around in your room. I just did that and I worked up quite a sweat. I feel so much better now.


I was looking through some of the music and videos on my PC and I realise I have a thing for Justin Timberlake. I have an Nsync video as well as I have three of his videos from his solo album. I have in my possession that solo album as well as two Nsync CDs.......

I wouldnt lie to you...if there was one white boy I was given the opportunity to sample, is him.

hee hee.....

I had a good driving lesson today. My instructor said that I could do it on Monday if I wanted to.

YAY!

I see this licence as a big step towards my independence. Next year I might need a car if I have to do my studies, I MUST get it.

Wish me luck.

Well it finally happpened. A student almost slapped a teacher...and he choose the biggest strongest teacher to size up for. Take note that the student received a slap so hard that his retainer flew out.

A student peed in a class today. I mean he pulled out his penis and peed in class. A teacher was not in class at the time.
We dubbed today Mad Friday yes.....

Too much shit happening and not enough action.

Yuh know how long I have not posted. Not because I didnt want to but because I couldnt.

I got home again at 7pm. This is ridiculous now. I need to be paid overtime.

But the meeting was really good and I got to speak to some parents that I thought I would never see.

I was running up and down AGAIN. *sigh* when will it end?

I got home again at 7pm. This is ridiculous now. I need to be paid overtime.

But the meeting was really good and I got to speak to some parents that I thought I would never see.

I was running up and down AGAIN. *sigh* when will it end?

I felt like the energizer bunny today..just going and going ..............

This morning I got to work late because I have not rested well at all from the hike.
I did some administrative stuff and then I went to class. I am asking the form fives some VITAL questions before their mock orals and they dont know SHIT!

The form fives in the next class just wanted to lime..so I let them. I took the only student who does any work at all and went through some last minute pointers with him. I hope it works.

Thanks to my HOD my class enacted the tomato battle or TOMATINA ( you can google it) but instead of tomatoes they used balloons. They had so much fun eh, and they were talking about it afterwards. Of course students from my other form 2 class were asking why they dont get to do things like that, I said you have the guts to ask me that???

I stayed back to have lessons today and two of my students were venting about their parents. I could understand some of their complaints, but it is affecting their work.

I then went to the mall to pay my internet bill. Then I went in search of a decently priced shoe. That was so hard to find. I just hope my shoe holds out till Saturday.

Feeling a little peckish, I went to buy a pizza for dinner. The girl messed up my order royally!
*sigh*

I assumed she was new so I wasnt too bad but the girl didnt even say sorry miss for giving you the wrong order.

I finally got home and properly nyammed 4 slices!

hee hee

The gola is to get up early in the morning!!!

I sleep too late.

I want to get to work by 7:15 at least so that I can get some work done.

I came home at 9pm....no I dont work shift now.

I was saying if the extra time I put in is given back to me, I would have about a week of leave.


I have so many things to do and so little time.

Today was the hike.

We hiked from Diego Martin to Chaguramas...about a 4 hr hike....

I must say it was very challenging.

My co worker and friend was such a big help. He not only carried my bag, but he was also encouraging me which gave me the motivation to move forward.

Ladies...this guy is a winner and he is single. If allyuh want a hook up let me know!

I love my boyfriend a lot. And I do mean a lot.

It's an intense feeling. It's scary sometimes.

*sigh*

We had some good sex today.

I went for my driving lesson today and it was a very good one. All I have to do is work on my reversing and three point turn and I am good to go!

Yesterday wasnt too bad. I must say since the parents meeting on Wednesday, there have been some improvements. But we still have a long way to go.

In our cake sale yesterday,we made $376.00 which is good. A little goes a long way.

There was a fight in the form 5 class I was in, but what was good was that they got strokes! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Back out to work tomorrow.
I dont mind because tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!!!

I think there is supposed to be a staff lime but I dunno. I like home.
There is also a school hike on Sunday, but I have to reach to school at 6am!!! That is madness.

I have to be cognizant of the fact that not everyone is like me. I can go to work and no one would know if something is troubling me. I dont see the need to look sour and sad. I wont pull away from my friends, I would want to be close to them. Why be down? How is being down going to help the situation?

I'm worried about a friend. She stayed home for 3 days. I dont think she's sick. I just dont know how to approach her nah.

*sigh*

I'll wait until she volunteers something.

Well CSI is on...........

I took a sick day today. I woke up with a headache and I just could make it to work.

Tomorrow is Friday already!!!!!!!!
I cant wait.



Why wallow in self pity? Yeah things might not be going your way but you have so much going for you...so damn much! The world is at your disposal because you have no one to tie you down. Make use of your time instead of thinking about what you DONT have.

I got home at 7:42pm tonight. Imagine if I were working overtime...

I enjoy my boyfriend so much. When he came to drop the fan for me last night, I was SO glad to see him. Not only because of the fan, but because I got to see him during the week. His eyes lit up when he saw me and I hope he saw the love in my eyes as well. I just hugged him and kissed him.
I hope that when we embark upon a life together that we will look at each other like that still.

So I slept like a baby. I got up and got ready for school. I arrived on time and had a chat with my friends. That chat was nice.

Then I went to my form five class. I gave them an example of what is coming for mock exams. I told them do the work, only four students did it.
I lock off. That is it. I am not asking them fuckers for no work again nah.

I went to the form threes. I did a revision for a test they are getting tomorrow. Let's see who will pass nah.

I went to my form four class. The regular fellas did their work, the others didnt.
I went to my other form five class. Three people did the work.

I went to give out the school lunches. Every day I have to tell those greedy fuckers make one straight line. Every fucking day. Today I said I would rather throw the food away that give it to you all if you dont line up straight. One fass fucker said Miss you rather throw the food away than feed people? You are a dog.

Well I grab dat. Of course he wanted to size me up. I didnt back down at all. No fucking 16 yo punk going and size up for me. He went to the office one time. The principal asked him what he said. He told the principal he didnt say dog. He said that it was a doggy attitude. When the prinicipal left I whispered to him at least a man woulda tell the principal the truth. The fucker LIE yes. AHAHHAHAHAHA! damn fucker! will leave the school with no fucking passes.
I would admit I was upset, but i realise he is leaving the school very soon. So I wont have to deal with him.

I went to my form one class and that was fun. Then I had a free period. I spent the time talking to a student who was really bothered about his situation at home.

I stayed back this afternoon to help form fives with their orals. Only 7 students out of 18 came and one of them wasnt even mine. STEUPS
Those fuckers rather pay for lessons yes. Ha Lord!

I stayed back for a parents meeting. I thought it was a good meeting. I saw some parents I really wanted to see and of course the ones you really NEEDED to see didnt come.

So that was MY day today. So when I get my two mnths PAID vacation, I deserve it eh.

Gosh!

We still have the passion.

I love it!!!!!!!

I hope we have this passion when we have been together for decades!

I am loved just the way that I am.

That is such a sweet thing to hear and I have waited my whole life to hear that.


Last night I am moving my fan. All of a sudden I heard a loud noise and I realised that a blade broke. I was like HUH? The grill was not attached properly, so when grill met blade, it broke. I tried to get the fan to work but it was useless until the fan just fell apart.

STEUPS!

I am keeping my fingers crossed that I can get my new fan pretty soon.