Today was a good day yes. I was told today that basically I am a good teacher.

*BIG GRIN*

I needed that boost. I felt as if I was running on reserves.

I found that my 'ex' of mine was calling me too often. I was confused. When we were 'together' that didnt happen. But from talking to him today, I realise that he just needed someone to talk to. Things are kind of stressful in his life and I guess he needed a friend.

I am an idiot. A big idiot.

But I have someone in my life that accepts me for who I am and truly loves me. He handles me with such care eh, such care.

WOW.

Have you ever been given a gift that means a lot to you?

The watch that my boyfriend gave me means so much to me. It's like I have a reminder of him with me every day.

I value the necklace and earrings that he gave me, but I wear those on special occasions. I wear my watch everyday. I feel safe with it on...I know it sounds weird, but it's true.

Thanks baby!

My house was last again, but I have to check up those points. We did well on some events. My form ones were great!!!!!!

I was supposed to go to the school fete but I was broken up. My legs hurt, my head hurt. I slept fron 6pm to 6 am.
Was one of the worse sleeps I ever had.

I have work to do this weekend. LOTS.
Wish me luck.

I love starting off my day talking to my boyfriend. It sets the tone for the day.

I got to school on time and went to my first class, the form fives. STEUPS. I have made my list already. Time to get rid of some dead weight.

I went to the form threes and had a small chat with two of the most miserable students in that year group. I really hope they would try their best at the test.

I went to give out the box lunch today and there was a boy who was very rude. I told him to get out of the line. HE said that he was going to tell Mr West. I laughed at the boy. I have no probs giving out the lunch, but I insist that the boys must say thank you.

I had so much fun with my form one class today. I had a game where students would say a poem without mistakes. A student who was struggling with Spanish won the prize of the pencil. I was really glad.

Then I relaxed for two periods and buss it as soon as school finished. I needed to get out of school.

*sigh*
Friendships are tough to deal with at times.

How Your Attitude Ranks

Your Attitude is Better than 45% of the PopulationIf you scored... 80-100: You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life. 60-79: You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you. 40 - 59: You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones. 20 - 39: You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good. 0-19: You have a negative attitude. You tend to see the dark side of every situation. Free ice cream? No thanks, it will just make you fat!

How's" Your Attitude?

I went to bed in pain last night. The taebo session was good, but pressure. So I was sleepy all day today.

Today was the form four parents day and I must admit it wasnt that bad.

Today was interesting.
My house pulled tug of war and we came third. I happy with that.
Not if we could just move up to 5th place, I will be glad.

This afternoon we had tae bo. I am dead tired. I bought KFC. I cant stand up and cook nutten.

Tomorrow is form 4 parents day. I dont think I will have too much to say.

I real tired. But I just envision de abs for august when I am walking on the beaches in tortola in my bikini.

I am still experiencing hurt from that situation with my mother and sister. But I am going to get over that because it's really eating away at me.

I'm feeling so loved by my boyfriend.

My birthday is next month and it's on a Monday :s

The fulfillment I was feeling about my job last term has waned. However I am excited about the trips later this year.

Today I went to a birthday lime down in La Vega. It was really nice.
My friend had her mom sharing out the food and her dad was just around and her siblings and friends were there and I wish I could have something like that, but I know it will never happen.

I will try to establish some semblance of family with my boyfriend. After reading the book, I realise that my love languages are words of affirmation which I dont get from my family; quality time which I dont or cant get; physical touch which I dont get either. Thank God my niece likes to hug.

On the other hand, I love the independence. I was forced to learn how to do things. I'm self sufficient. I rely on me. I dont have mommy to run to.
I love my life.
I love the friends I have. They are great.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE my boyfriend. He's my support.

I love my job. I have found the secret: Dont eat up yourself about things that you have no control over. I am less stressed, less hassled.
I am grateful for everything I have.

I forgot to write that the other night, Kayode and I were looking up Sesame Street on the net and just bringing back memories.
It was like a Sesame Street memories sound clash.

"Remember 'a loaf of bread a container of milk and a stick of butter?"

"FYAH!!!"

LOL...it was fun though remembering a lot of stuff, and it was great to see that there are people outside of Trinidad who have such fond memories too. So much so that there is a forum. COOL!

My house came last again. Maybe if I start speaking positively, maybe we might win.

One of my students told me that he cant afford to go on the trip to Costa Rica.
:(

I trying to get some money for him, but I dont know where to start.
Can anyone help?

WOW

Taebo was good today. Abs workout was really really good. I didnt take as manys tops as I usually do.

But I am tired, so tired. my bed is calling me.

My best friend called me today as well as yesterday. It was cool talking to her on the phone rather than typing on Yahoo.
SHe said she will call as often as she can. I like that a lot.

I carried my copy of The Rules to school. Well that caused an uproar. For those who dont know, The Rules is a book that outlines certain do's and dont's to get Mr Right, for example, Dont accept dates from a guy after Wednesday; be honest but mysterious.
My mother sent that book for me when I was real salting. I used some of the rules, but they didnt work. Imagine one of the rules says to no initiate a convo with a man. If I stuck to that rule, I never would have met my boyfriend. PSHT!

Honestly I cant wait till the weekend. I have some fun stuff planned.

I carried my copy of The Rules to school. Well that caused an uproar. For those who dont know, The Rules is a book that outlines certain do's and dont's to get Mr Right, for example, Dont accept dates from a guy after Wednesday; be honest but mysterious.
My mother sent that book for me when I was real salting. I used some of the rules, but they didnt work. Imagine one of the rules says to no initiate a convo with a man. If I stuck to that rule, I never would have met my boyfriend. PSHT!

Honestly I cant wait till the weekend. I have some fun stuff planned.

I was supposed to get up early this morning, but I failed that.
But I still got to school on time.
My day was very light but from tomorrow, it get harder.

I am still mad. But it's not as bad as before.

Isnt family supposed to be the people you can depend on the most?
They are not supposed to fuck you up, or hurt you.

I couldnt sleep last night because I was up thinking about my family and how I think I need to have some distance. I try so much to reach out to my family and I get nothing, but here I am, being accused of causing a rift. Yuh could fucking believe that?
Well yes.

On the flip side, I have a keeper. I really do. I needed him and he was there for me and then some. I cant thank him enough for that.
Thank you baby.
:D

FUCK ALL THIS!

Yuh know what, if you want things done your way, YOU FUCKING DO IT!

Costa Rica HERE I COME!

Do you feel appreciated where you work?
Some of us were talking about it today and we all said no.
Do we need to feel appreciated? I mean we do get paid. SHouldnt that be enough?

*sigh*

This morning I started off the day by taking a Centrum tablet and I must admit I had energy for the whole day.

Things seem to be gelling for the Costa Rica trip. I am very excited. There is a possibility that I might have to stay with a host family, something I am not too eager about. Then I am worried about the food and the effect it might have on my stomach.
Lomotil and gravol IMMC!

Sports day is coming close. I hope the biys who promised to come out will really honour their word. We have some talent in the house. It's just to get them to participate.

After such a great weekend, I wasnt looking forward to work today. But it wasnt that bad. When I got to the CaneFarm Taxi Stand, there were few taxis, but I made it just in time.
I had my form one class, which wasnt so bad, then a free. Then lunch and I had to hand out the school lunches...ugh.
Then I had a free again and then my form fours. They work on auto-pilot sometimes. It's great!
One student said my class is a stress relief. Is that a good thing or a bad thing....hmmmmm.......

I WAS going to stay back for tae-bo but I was having a really good convo with a friend of mine and I just didnt want to stop talking.

TORTOLA 2005 or bust! A friend of mine lives in the BVI. Might as well take the opportunity to visit.

I love special weekends like this one.

We just LOVE to eat so we treated ourselves to a good lunch. I really thought that I could have persuaded him to see Closer with me, but that was a bust. We settled for watching Out of Time with Denzel Washington and Boyz in the Hood with Cuba Gooding Jr. At least it was free.

We just got a lot closer. I'm glad that I am able to make him happy. He's so cute when he's happy eh, and so much fun.....I want to make him happy all the time.

Well, school tomorrow...lots of things to do.

The first week of school is OVER! YAY!

We ended it by taking a small lime in Bootleggers. I must say the prices were not bad at all. I am planning to treat myself to a meal there soon.

I made some serious decisions today. I know it is going to be a lot of hard work, but I keep running from it. It's time to dive right in.

This is for Kayode.LOL

"Much of Boat Trip is an embarrassment, particularly for the stars. What, precisely, is wrong with Cuba Gooding, Jr., that makes him feel obliged to star in the most wretched comedies imaginable? Once a fine actor, lately he’s been frittering away his career on material far beneath his talents. Maybe he’s being blackmailed. "

I feel as if I have been in school for a whole year. These children have come back worse! Steups.

I just want to stay home and watch tv for a few more days.....please?

Today is my last day of vacation. But it was nice though. I got a lot done.

I dont understand. Banks and utility payment centres should increase the number of workers at the end of the month. I mean people are coming in to pay their bills or deposit money, oh gosh, facilitate them nah. I went in the bank today. Only two tellers working and the line long long. STEUPS.

I have to get up at 5:30AM....ugh.

I went to my reunion this morning. It wasnt as well attended as we expected, but I found it was a nice way to spend my Sunday morning. I saw a friend of mine who I had not seen since 1997. She looks and acts the same way. It was lots of fun.
What I was most impressed about is Hilton's brunch. While it was a bit steep ($185), the waiters and the amount of food took away the sting of the price. I liked the live music although it was a bit too loud and you could go back how many times you want!!! HEAVEN! Before the year is over, I hope to go back there.

After spending Old Years all by myself, I finally got to see my boyfriend. Not that my he doesnt greet me lovingly when I go to visit, but yesterday was really special....really special.
:D

I got all these profound emails from people who have really done a lot of introspection. I havent done mine as yet.

What I am glad for is having someone at my side, who will be there to support me in all my endeavours. Not having a family unit is kinda tough, so having my own 'family' makes me stronger.

Thanks baby.